One year ago today I woke up feeling 'off'. The previous night C&I indulged in a few too many cocktails with friends. So at first I attributed my off feeling to a possible hangover. But as the hours passed I didn't feel hungover. Just, off.
So, while C was downstairs watching TV, I took a pregnancy test. As I was waiting to see the results I knew in my heart that I was pregnant. I just knew. There's no other words to explain how I knew except - I just knew. I felt it. I kept myself busy with switching out the laundry while I was waiting for the results. I came to the counter of the bathroom and looked down. Two lines. TWO! Two lines meant I was pregnant :)
I was thrilled!
But obviously not convinced since I took two more tests just to be certain. Those tests were, of course, positive as well.
Just as I was about to run downstairs and tell C the news I was overcome with feeling scared. Just 7 weeks prior I suffered a miscarriage and had to undergo a D&C. We were still coping with that loss. I wanted so much to be happy and excited to be pregnant again, however I was so scared and nervous to go through another loss. So after a few prayers and a pep talk to myself, I went downstairs to tell C that we were expecting, again. Whatever was going to happen with this pregnancy was going to happen. All I could do was pray and stay positive. It was out of our hands and in God's.
Now here we are, one year later. A happy family of 3 (errr, 4 including Tiko). We have a healthy, happy and ridiculously handsome baby boy. Vinny has consumed our lives and has brought us more happiness than I could have ever imagined. I'm a mom now. A mom! Something I never really knew if I would be or wanted to be. Now I can't imagine not being a mom. It's funny how much your life can change in just one year.
See, I wasn't kidding. I did take THREE tests!
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