Goodbye 2012

Monday, December 31, 2012

As I sit at my desk and count the hours until I'm home again and my little Vinny is in my arms, I'm reflecting on all the goodness 2012 brought to us. 

Let's recap, shall we?

I was keeping mum about my pregnancy since I was in the very early weeks still.   I was however telling a few of my closet friends in person.  The reactions and spilling the news was truly one of my favorite moments.  I love how excited my friends were for us.

We also signed the contract to start building our new home in January.  At the time it felt like the month of May would never arrive.  We were so excited to finally build our dream home.

We spent the beginning of February lounging on the beach with C's parents.  It was such a fun and relaxing get away.  While soaking up the sun on the beach I was trying to think of a creative way to announce our pregnancy on FB.  So I came up with this.

March came and went.  We had a lot of decisions to make regarding our interior choices in the house.  It was a fun but a little stressful.  The granite and back splash you choose has be perfect and something you know you'll love years to come.  No pressure.  Especially for the most indecisive person like ever (me).

April was filled with tying up loose ends on house decisions, packing up our t-house, photo sessions and, most importantly, hitting the half way mark in my pregnancy.  
Look at that bump.  And I thought I was huge then?  Ha, please.  If I only knew what I would look like a day before delivering I would definitely think I looked and felt tiny!

May was such an exciting month.  We moved out of our t-house and into our home.  Thankfully C's mom and my sister-in-law drove up from Illinois to help us get organized (weird, we are still doing that 7 months later) and unpack.  We were finally homeowners.  Such an amazing feeling. 

I had both of my baby showers in June.  One in Minnesota hosted by one of my besties and another in Chicago hosted by our moms.  They both were so perfect.  I couldn't have dreamt up a better shower.  We got so many much needed items and baby gear. 
My lovely friend, Natalie, also was sweet enough to photograph my maternity session for me.  Eventho I did not love looking like a house, I am forever grateful for these images. 
With only one month before our Vinny arrived much of my time was spent prepping and designing his nursery while staying out of the heat. Of course, at the time, I didn't know if Vinny would be a Vinny or not.  So I kept things gender neutral which was such a struggle for me.  But in the end I pulled it off and love the end result.  (Yes, I realize I haven't even posted my nursery reveal!  I'm on it, I swear.)
On a whim I also decided to chop off all my hair.  Who does that 8 months pregnant?  This girl.  Pretty sure the heat got to my head.  Literally.

Vincent Marc was born on August 23, 2012 at 10:44 a.m. weighing 9 pounds, 1 ounce and 21 inches long.  Life as I knew it got a lot sweeter.
We spent a huge part of September cuddling and getting to know our little man.  Both of our families drove up from Chicago to visit and help us around the house.  C's mom even stayed with us for a few weeks.  We are so thankful for all the help and time spent with family. 

My bestest bestie even flew up to Minnesota from Chicago, 7 months pregnant, to meet Vinny.

Vinny was baptized and all of our family came back up to Minnesota to celebrate.  He wore the same baptism outfit that C wore when he was baptized.  34 years later. 
We made our first road trip with Vinny to Chicago to celebrate Thanksgiving.  He was such a good boy and probably only fussed for 20 mins the entire drive. 
Back to Chicago to celebrate Vinny's first Christmas with all of our family.  This Christmas was a little sweeter than the rest.  To know me in real life is to know that I'm a Grinch when it comes to Christmas.  Not this year.  It's amazing what having a baby will do to you. 

So farewell 2012!  I will miss you and so thankful for you.  You were definitely our best year yet.  I'm exciting to see what 2013 has in store for us.  


Friday, December 21, 2012

Yesterday was my day off.  I love my days off spent with Vinny.  I crave them and when they arrive I soak up every second with him.  Yesterday was no different.  Except for the fact that he slept until 7:30!  Sleepy boy.  He normally goes to bed around 8/8:30 p.m. and wakes up at 6:00 a.m.  As I was patiently waiting for him to wake up, I didn't know what to do with myself.  I never have this kind of time on my hands.  Did I want to shower?  Catch up on laundry?  Clean the house?  Wrap Christmas gifts?  My options were endless.  Instead I decided to whip up some reinbeer!  There are two men in my life who I was struggling with find gifts for.  I figured what guy doesn't love beer?  Perfect.  Done and Done. 

I'm not a crafty person so this was huge for me.  I managed to work a hot glue gun for the first time in my life and walked away with only one burn to my forearm. 

I have to admit - they turned out pretty darn cute.

Go on.  I know you totally want to make some now. 

Victory is Mine

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

HUGE victory today.  HUGE!  I'm wearing my regular work pants!!  My work pants that I sadly stopped wearing somewhere around 16 weeks into my pregnancy.  I tried on these pants a few weeks ago and I couldn't button them.  Today, for shits and giggles, I decided to try again.  And, to my surprise, they buttoned!  They are a tad snug around the waist, but everywhere else they fit perfectly.  I still can't believe I'm wearing them.  I've been wearing nothing but leggings to the work the last month.

I definitely still have some work to do on my post-baby body.  I'm not where I would like to be just yet.  But, every week I'm starting to feel better and better about myself.  I don't own a scale (on purpose) so I don't know if I'm close to my pre-pregnancy weight yet.  I kinda doubt it.  I get frustrated with myself at times because the weight isn't coming off as fast as I would have liked it to.  But I have to remind myself that I had a c-section and my appendix removed 4 weeks after my c-section.  So, my body needed a little extra time to heal.  Or maybe that's just an excuse I give myself for it taking so long.  ;)

Today I'm just relishing in the victory that I'm wearing my normal work pants.  And heels.  And a polka dot sweater.  Today is a good day.

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One Year Later

Monday, December 17, 2012

One year ago today I woke up feeling 'off'.  The previous night C&I indulged in a few too many cocktails with friends.  So at first I attributed my off feeling to a possible hangover.  But as the hours passed I didn't feel hungover.  Just, off. 

So, while C was downstairs watching TV, I took a pregnancy test.  As I was waiting to see the results I knew in my heart that I was pregnant.  I just knew.  There's no other words to explain how I knew except - I just knew.  I felt it.  I kept myself busy with switching out the laundry while I was waiting for the results.  I came to the counter of the bathroom and looked down.  Two lines.  TWO!  Two lines meant I was pregnant :)

I was thrilled!

But obviously not convinced since I took two more tests just to be certain.  Those tests were, of course, positive as well.

Just as I was about to run downstairs and tell C the news I was overcome with feeling scared.  Just 7 weeks prior I suffered a miscarriage and had to undergo a D&C.  We were still coping with that loss.  I wanted so much to be happy and excited to be pregnant again, however I was so scared and nervous to go through another loss.  So after a few prayers and a pep talk to myself, I went downstairs to tell C that we were expecting, again.  Whatever was going to happen with this pregnancy was going to happen.  All I could do was pray and stay positive.  It was out of our hands and in God's. 

Now here we are, one year later.  A happy family of 3 (errr, 4 including Tiko).  We have a healthy, happy and ridiculously handsome baby boy.  Vinny has consumed our lives and has brought us more happiness than I could have ever imagined.  I'm a mom now.  A mom!  Something I never really knew if I would be or wanted to be.  Now I can't imagine not being a mom.  It's funny how much your life can change in just one year.

See, I wasn't kidding.  I did take THREE tests! 

Photo credit:  Natalie Kirby Photography


I logged in to blog about baby weight, the first time eating cereal and the holidays that are quickly approaching.  But instead my heart is too heavy to blog about those things. 

The shootings in Connecticut have really hit me hard.  I just can't fathom what those families are going through right now. 

I spent the weekend holding Vinny a little closer, a little tighter and a little longer. 

How does a person do such a thing?  To helpless, beautiful children.  I can't wrap my brain around it.  My heart hurts for the families. 

It's all too much. 

Crocodile Tears

Friday, December 7, 2012

As you know, we have a pretty sweet arrangement right now with Vinny.  I work part-time, 3 days a week.  Those 3 days where I'm in the office C is working from home and taking care of Vinny.  So we have managed to forgo daycare.  It's been a nice arrangement and we are lucky that we are able to have the flexibility in our jobs to make this work.

But I know it will have to come to an end eventually.  C will need to be in the office 5 days a week towards the end of February or beginning of March.

With that in mind - we toured a daycare yesterday.  GASP!  All of my neighbors take their kids to this daycare and rave about it.  So, going into our tour I felt nothing but positive thoughts.  We met the teachers and supervisor.  Everyone seems so nice and very attentive.  We checked out the room where Vinny would be playing and napping in.  It's nice and filled with toys so I know he would have a blast playing there.  However, half way into our tour, I just broke down and started bawling.  We are talking crocodile tears bawling.  I couldn't control my emotions or make myself stop sobbing.  Mascara was smeared all over my face. 

I was a mess.

I really didn't think that just taking a tour of a daycare would have caused such tears.  I didn't expect that and surely C was caught off guard as well.

I know it's not like we are dropping Vinny off tomorrow at daycare.  We still have some time.  But just the thought of someone else taking care of my baby other than C or I brings me to tears.  I realize that sounds super silly.  But, I'm a first time mom and all of this is new to me.  We have not left Vinny with anyone other than his grandparents for longer and an hour and a half.  So the pure thought of Vinny being in daycare for 3 days, 9 hours each day, makes my head and heart hurt.

Now I know there are so many benefits of daycare.  Vinny will get the socialization he needs, learn more than I could possibly teach him and make friends.  Plus, as much as I would hate to admit it, it's probably good for him to be away from mom and dad for a while.  But, emotionally, it's taking it's toll on me.  I'm sure every new mom has felt the feelings I'm having and can relate.  I just have to keep telling myself that this is for his own good and that it's only 3 days a week. 

15 Weeks Old

Look! I'm actually keeping up with my weekly photo shoots with Vinny.  *Patting myself on the back* 

Vinny is 15 weeks old and is getting so big.  He's so strong and such a handsome little baby.  Although, I might be a little biased :) 

This face makes my heart burst into a million little pieces.

He's absolutely fascinated by Christmas lights! So, of course, it gave me inspiration for a photo op.

***I realize lights are hot and are a danger to babies. The lights were plugged in for literally 2 minutes and were not hot. I would never endanger my baby just to get "the shot".***


Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Nowadays I feel like every post I type is 'MishMash'.  I let too many days go in between my posts so when I do get a chance to blog, I feel like I'm throwing all my thoughts into one post.  I will get better ... or so I hope. 

  • I spent 30 minutes in my closet today trying on things to find something, anything, to wear to work today.  I'm not happy with what I selected.  It's one of those days where even a new shirt wouldn't do the trick.  I think I'm going to hide out behind my desk all day.

  • Vinny no longer needs to be swaddled at night to sleep.  It's all so bittersweet to me.  Now when I check the monitor he's always sleeping soundly on his side.  He's officially a side sleeper, just like his mama. 

  • I ordered my first pair of real leather riding boots yesterday (thank you Macy's friends and family discount).  This is huge people.  I have a plethora of boots in my closet.  None of which are real leather.  It's weird.  Or maybe I'm just kinda cheap?  Regardless, I'm excited for them to arrive on my doorstep.  There's something about real leather boots that officially make me feel like an adult. 

  • Which brings me to my next thought.  We have family photos scheduled for this weekend and I haven't even put thought into our outfits yet.  Normally I have these things planned weeks in advance.  I am at a loss as to what colors I'd like us to wear.  Do I want us to be super casual?  Dress up a tad?  Sport some heels?  Keep it simple with boots?  I just don't know.  This is where my indecisiveness kicks in.  I have 5 days to get it together. 

  • Hair day is tomorrow and it can't come soon enough.  I'm easily 3 weeks overdue.  Being a mama makes getting to the salon a lot trickier these days.  It was easy to bring Vinny with me when he was a newborn and slept the entire time.  But now that he's awake the majority of the day I don't think he would appreciate sitting through my hair appointment.  My roots quite possibly two inches long.  Good thing ombre is in style right now.

  • C&I have an appointment to tour a daycare by our house this week.  Hold me.  Tightly!  C has been working from home and staying with Vinny the 3 days I go into the office.  But we know that will eventually need to come to an end.  And sadly, probably sooner than we would like.  All of our neighbors take their children to the daycare we are touring so, if we like it, Vinny would have some familiar faces while at daycare.  Which oddly makes things a tad easier. 

Upcoming posts:
Nursery Reveal (yes, I realize this is sooooo overdue!)
Post Baby Weight Loss
Thoughts on Baby #2

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